|Don't even bother reading this rambling without paragraphs.
||[Mar. 7th, 2007|02:18 am]
I think that almost everyone around has gone to sleep. I am the only person awake here. I could do work for school I suppose, but I’m not much in the mood for doing school work. Instead I’ll just type on here. Everyone that I have contact with has fallen asleep. It is strange to be the only one that is still awake. All of the other people that I know are trying to get rest but I can’t get rest quite yet. My mind is still awake. It is still starving for something. Something that I can’t quite place my finger on. I’m waiting for a new idea. Something to drive for. I’m waiting for something to grab onto and fly with. I feel like I could do anything right now if I set my mind to it. I don’t know what I’m really trying to do. Take some time off while at school. Unfortunately since I recently had the flu I have a lot of work backed up, but everyone is taking it easy for spring break. I still have to study for my engineering test, but that seems still far away. I have until Monday to take that test. I hope that I can go in prepared. I must take a day off soon to catch up on school work. My engineering project is not finished and I need to get a hold of everyone in my group so that we can get a good final product to hand in. Nobody seems to really be communicating with each other. It’s hard enough to communicate between two people with all the mass confusion around here. I guess that’s what spring break is for really. It’s meant for people to come together and relax for a while before being thrown head first into “the real world.” I don’t really know why we have to put a bunch of shit together for other people in order to survive in the “real world.” But I do know that it’s best for me to quietly comply with the plans of the world. It’s a lot of bullshit that you have to work out and memorize and keep track of but it’s all a game. They’re weeding out who can handle the work and who can’t. Those that can handle the work have either figured the game out or they have been possessed by the game since the day they were born. There won’t always be spring breaks. Spring breaks are for those without work. Those who work become a part of a large commercial machine. This machine is called America. I want to be a part of it. Hell it’s a way to survive. Nobody is telling you how to survive once you’re in. You can spend you’re whole life trying to take down “the system” or whatever you want to call it but it won’t even matter. You’ll just be left behind as an outcast by society. The best way to operate in the system is to become one with the system and try to live out your life the best way that you can. Enjoy life, enjoy the system, you’re fucked if you try and fight it. Study your ass off, get a job, get a haircut, take a shower, pay your taxes, drive your car, waste your gas driving to jobs you don’t want, then smile at night happy you’ve done your part.